Tested you will

Tested you will be on belief,

call of duty or of god,

if believe there is no thief,

you’ll be pushed to thieve and fraud;

money best bet said Ayn Rand,

if so you’ll be forced to stoop,

to beg, borrow or steal to stand,

you’ll never be let out of the loop;

you unreal can’t stop reality,

illusion and myths others shatter,

not fool you, so live in brevity,

you not special so don’t flatter;

yet you are the one for this task,

do it chosen or forsaken, never bask.


The wild rage

The wild rage, pain on, you got that zing thing,
no blunder, never surrender, the thunder crazy,
the world tells, world yells, what do we care,
we don’t cross them, we walk free, we dare;

their spells, that bind all, on us loose its magic,
and they’re afraid as we stand defying logic,
in fear and desperation, hold out their rules,
what constraints can hold us wild bulls;

death does come to all us, pain comes,
happiness too, in a blitzkrieg beyond hymns,
let them gather, mumble prayers, and give fee,
we’ll take anytime, death or morning tea;

they envy us and tremble, throwing stones
on us brave few that never went under.

When you got no control…


This is a stream of consciousness directed by rational thoughts and irrational personal perceptions that can be inferred from the context.

I went to the house of a spiritualist with an atheist. Both are old and wise, only the young mistake impudence for intelligence. They enquired about my health and life and listened to my chatter and there was nothing said of god or science. The atheist left and the spiritualist took me to a share auto stand. I said I’ll go by individual auto and not share auto as I didn’t mind. I came by share auto and listened to some mediocre song that reminded me of Ilayaraja on the way.

My ‘belief system’ as Sruthi Hassan addressed to actor Kamal Hassan instead of using just the word belief is as follows. It is just ashes to ashes after death which is final, there is no rebirth, hell or heaven, or even a god after death. Yes, certainly ‘no god, after death’. Ayn Rand, Kamal Hassan and all dravidian atheists who are motivated more by social Justice rather than Science alone, and a few others might subscribe to this. Einstein and his God have no part in this.

Science has descended to the level of speculation or more correctly popular perception of science has become so decadent and untenable. There can be no question about Nobel Laurette Feynman’s Science but with his popular personal interviews that have no credibility with science, he has made science the loser. At least Einstein clearly demarcated his science and his beliefs. Let us take one brief example. This might sound rational but needs further querying and I will be coming to this later. For now let us assume a mere speculation on incomplete logic and not science. Relativity is very real. Relativity of Time and space are also real under strict definitions of both. Black holes are a real scientific hypothesis based on acknowledged axioms or assumptions. Time travel and time space warps aren’t even science fiction but pure imagination.

Simply put relativity of time says that at the speed of light, two observers, say one inside and one outside, perceive the same event at different points of time. This might mean that by some weird causality the very same holographic patterns of the past might be rendered intact or be rendered like a 3d movie several light years away, now this is science fiction. This doesn’t alter the fact that the said event can happen only once. Going back to the Big Bang, or the assertion of the black hole cannot alter this fact. Time travel is like calling the photo, the man. No causality can cause the physical matter in the said state to exist somewhere else, even that un eventuality can be called a clone, but it is an un eventuality.

Saying god made the apple to fall on Newton’s head isn’t nice. But saying God made Newton claim discovering Gravity, Gravity and all other things are by God is different. It is a question of belief. The Church was wrong to hold the earth as the centre or to have called Darwin a liar. But if it is held God made Sun the Centre and led the church to believe and claim wrongly all along is a different story.

Ayn Rand despises mediocrity, and the loyal, true Eddie Willers was left to rot and perish in the real world in Atlas Shrugged by reason of mediocrity alone, is very true. Fountain Head is a different story, where Mike a lowly plumber who knows his job and respects Roark for knowing his job, is allowed to exist. It isn’t a class system either. Ayn Rand despises eastern mystics more than communists. Yet If I say, that Roark, is a subset of the Bhagwad Gita, it isn’t a contentious claim. That shall be a separate blog post. Ayn Rand purists might bellow at me, but if Rand were alive she would grudgingly concur though deploring the garb of spiritualism under which it is clothed. I am not deploring Rand here. The Mystic texts are full of seeming contradictions. The subset has only semblance and seeds of Roark and isn’t considered the perfect ideal.

Ayn Rand purists can rest assured, she is a class apart. In her axiomatic world there are not even seeming contradiction. She contends Man is Ideal and portrays the ideal man. if you follow her, you are untrue, follow yourself is what she wants. Some one said even if there is no god, invent god, then you’ll have values and won’t err. I don’t believe God is an invention, not a God but Gods exist in this world when we live; or more aptly there is a power above guiding us in our life, call it God, justice, Dharma or Karma. It isn’t a naive belief but something I have felt. It can’t be conveyed. Well if you need try Kahlil Gibran’s ‘Prophet’ or any of your favorite scriptures.

I don’t believe in ‘God after Death’ but believe in ‘Powers or Gods’ in life guiding us. It isn’t a contradiction. For this read ‘Gibran’ and then you have to give it your own spin.

The mediocre song on which I had no control had purpose. Might be my ramblings might be chanced by another wayfarer eons away and ease him. May be it might even put smiles on the faces of readers who laugh at the naivety of wayfarers and their curious ways.

P.S. I am a fun person in life, then why this. Truth is when I am on a roll, and having so much fun, I don’t connect pen with paper, nor read a written word. I am happy a lot many times, a lot many many times, but no one can be happy all the time. Thinking too much will make one crazy. Work, love near and dear and be happy.

P.S.S. So baby, just relax and have lots of fun.